Frustrated

I have often been compared to my mom throughout my life and I never took it negatively until recently and the person who made me feel that way is supposed to be someone who genuinely cares about me.  This first bit is going to make me sound like I'm full of myself but they are aspects of my life that I am proud of and thankful to have that were some how turned negative.

My parents loved me. I know all parents say they love their kids but my parents always made sure I knew that every decision they made concerning me had my best interest at heart. I didn't always agree with it at the time, but looking back, I know that it was. They always had a roof over my head, food to eat, were involved in my extra curricular activities, and were ALWAYS there any time I needed to talk. My mom was my best friend and I am a typical "daddy's girl." They have given me so much in life that I can now support myself (for the most part!) and make smart decisions (for the most part!)

My boyfriend and I have been through so much together and the family emergencies just seem never-ending. Within the last year his grandfather passed away and mine was given his own death sentence. I can't imagine how hard it is for him to be re-living the experience of losing his grandpa; we received the news of my grandpa just a few weeks before the one year anniversary of his grandpa's passing.  We bicker just like any other couple but come the end of the day, we want nothing more than to be together. I am so thankful my parents showed me how good a relationship can be and how much love can be found between two people.

My degree is something I am most proud of in my life at this moment.  I worked hard all through high school so I could go to college right away. All through college I worked my butt off so I could graduate with honors and I did exactly that. I received awards for my hard work and was acknowledged by my faculty members and am very proud of the effort I put into the education my parent's gave me.  I cannot thank my dad enough for all of the overtime he worked so he could keep his promise to my mom that he would get my brother and me through school.

My work ethic is something else I am very proud of and thank my parents for because they were both such hard working people. (My dad still is to this day.) When I need a job, I am able to go out and look for them, set up interviews, and obtain something.  It may not be exactly what I want but it's something. It has allowed me to pay my own rent, utilities, gas, issues with my car, groceries, and anything else I'd like to buy.  My parents taught me to save and I have been able to do that as well in case I absolutely need a little extra one day.

So these things that I am very proud of have been twisted negatively by people who are supposed to care for me and be happy for me.  Instead, I feel like one of them is taking out her childhood insecurities with her sister on me, while the other is just upset that I was dealt a better hand.  I'm sorry your parents sucked and aren't there for you when you really need them. Or that you weren't lucky enough to have parents help you out so you could finish school. To the other, I'm sorry your sister made smart decisions and you didn't so she became the favorite. I'm sorry if I remind you of her too much but I am proud of what I have accomplished.  I'm also proud of the fact that I knew to wait to get married until I was done with school and now to wait until we really are financially secure. Maybe if you spent less time worrying about how well other people are doing and spent more time focusing on yourself and finding a job, you wouldn't need to rely on your mother so much and STILL not be able to make rent. It's called being an adult, you've "been" one for over 30 years. Try and start acting like it.

Sorry for all of the negativity of this blog but I'm just tired of being the one who gets blamed for things and caught in the middle of so much drama when I'm off on my own living my life. If you aren't happy with your life then stop complaining about mine and making me feel bad for my successes. Try taking a look at YOURSELF and figure out what you need to fix from there.